So it's been awhile since I've posted anything. I have no excuses, just lazy.
I tend to do this every so often. For a while I'll be really active in writing - and reading others' blogs - and then I'll just disappear from cyberspace with no warning. Why? Fuck, I dunno. Ok, that's a lie. I do know. When I'm actively using and strung out, I don't like to be in contact with my online friends. I guess I don't want people to see just how fucked up I am. So I stop writing, stop commenting on blogs, stop posting on facebook. Call it shame, or whatever.
So yeah, I've been MIA the last few months while I've been bingeing. I fess up. Now go throw stones at me and tell me to get my shit together, you lazy good for nothing junkie. I know you want to say it. And I would deserve it.
I asked myself for the millionth time why I keep putting myself through this. I'm no closer to an answer, just thought I'd come clean to you all - if anyone sees this - that I'm not clean and sober and haven't been for a few months. Maybe throwing this out there will encourage me to try the wagon again.
Guess that's all there is to say for now.