The voices receeded into the background as he watched the people walking along the street, busy with their own problems and thoughts. Did they feel as asleep as he did? Did they go about their day looking at the world around them in wonder, confused about how they had gotten there? He had been slightly past tipsy for the past 20 years it seemed, and now that he had been persuaded to put down the bottle....and everything else....he felt like a tourist in a foreign country. Everything was familiar, yet different. Time had passed him by, and he no longer recognized his life. Or himself.
“A man who procrastinates in his choosing will inevitably have his choice made for him by circumstance.” That was for sure. He had hidden from the harsh realities of life and in the meantime, life had gone on....uncaring that he was stuck in time. He couldn't reconcile the fact that getting sober wasn't going to let him live the last 20 years over again; he was going to have to move forward from this point in time. Or stay put, and forever feel lost. It was his choice.
He brooded as he stared at his tea; the clouds above were reflected on the surface. What a fitting metaphor, he thought.....light fluffy clouds dancing on top of the depths of darkness. Put a happy, sane face on for the world, while inside, the darkness threatened to consume him. When he looked at himself in the mirror lately, he wondered who it was that stared back....he surely didn't recognize this middle aged person. "But I'm going to have to get to know him," he whispered to himself. "It's the only way."
He downed the rest of the tea and stood up. He felt as if stepping out onto that sidewalk was a symbolic gesture of moving forward with this new, strange life. Then he laughed at himself....he took life way too seriously. Just go with it, he thought. Remember, “Yesterday's weirdness is tomorrow's reason why.”
Smiling, he stepped forward.
Copyright Steven Clark 2014
Posted for Blogophilia 7.7 topic: slightly past tipsy
bonus point (2 pts, hard): quote Hunter Thompson
bonus point (1 pt, easy): incorporate a snack machine
Bonus picture guesses:
get down, play that funky music white boy, crazy, twist and shout
topic guess: Colleen Breuning
photo guess: Sassysue King